i would rather die die die die die
than be alone

ready to burst into flames
the wretched fear resides quietly
until the threat comes alive
**** me **** me **** me
it says

my mania rises
latches onto anything it finds
she’s a crazy girl they’ve said
she’s not right in the head they’ve said
what’s going on in there? they’ve said

my mania subsides

i pull and pull and take until there is nothing to take
then i bid a kiss farewell
taking that blissful illness and flame in my hands
until it rebirths again