i'm afraid. . .
. . . but i shouldn't be.
i linger on
. . . hesitations.
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and when i'm slow again,
when i'm clear again,
when I

.....
pause.
i seek comfort in the strength of words, of music...
something
that i can't
lose
again.
something i can TOUCH.
something i can FEEL.

only to find it, and
lose it once more.