Its the peak of the night Into morning again All is quiet once more My phone has at last Stopped humming and buzzing The updates have ceased for a moment I could hear the crickets Cooing outside My fan blowing Along the ridges Of my new little old Chicago Apartment.
I meant to do so much today.
I pass along the dusty ground And I think back on making fresh coffee Waking up with such purpose Putting on my hat.
Once I open up I could talk endlessly Its very hard to stop Because even though I'm not aware Of the mask I wear (A movement teacher of mine told me that as a Freshmen in college) Still.
I should go to bed I have so much to do I need to be making money I need to be putting myself back out there And sometimes in painful moments I remember what it felt like When I had money A boyfriend
Both things I lack and have lost To a point of such uncertainty And its so hard to have it all at once.