Have you ever felt like your body isn't yours like you're kind of just here but not really existing, Like you're in an empty state almost like autopilot.You're there but in a way your not?

if You've ever felt that way I can relate, I like shutting out the world and forgetting about my problems, to me the numbness is kind of refreshing in a way, not feeling anything is almost healing, only to start the draining cycle afterwards but it keeps me sane.I'm not Going to go insane even if I were to go insane who's going to stop me.The people who ****** my life up or the people who gave me a helping hand only to be thrown on the ground and stabbed in the back. Overall the years I've been living in my life on Earth I've learned never show emotion it's your weakness. When you show emotion they feel a sense of pride knowing they've afflicted so much of their own Emotional pain on someone so that they don't have to go through it alone.
Eventually, I'll fall.