There is this line enveloping my insides And I'm not sure why She blows her whistle In the most vulnerable of times Like as I set down my luggage Screen a film surrounded by an audience Run errands prior To show time And it is like the hum of a drum An eloquent ever lonely song.
Perhaps its because I once had it Perhaps its just a vulnerable time But I have fallen asleep In my new home Imagining and longing Hearing "where are you?" And wished I could have Screamed it into the Canyon.
Its a reminder That I could always just settle Or continue this fight for myself My career My life And believe you will show up in time.
And it doesn't feel fair 99 percent of the time Though everyone surmised I was the exception, one of the lucky ones With my long list of serious relationships Where I fled in the end Or got treated like I have a knack For letting the wrong men Convince me to give them a chance.
So I am, its true I'm very alone now The most I've ever been And its like that whistle is blown In the most vulnerable of moments To say You sit alone You walk into an empty apartment You coordinate and lead Because this is just how it has to be Now.