Haunted by rejection Caged by your selfishness Your forceful restraint of love Knocking the air from my lungs Without having to throw a single punch
Surrounded by star-kissed love Reminding me of that which you refuse That which I have refused myself Why did I settle for this emptiness?
My heartbeat for you lessened Each unanswered text, every forgotten call No time made up for those tears The loneliness that came, nothingness
Your crass words Lightning to my gut Crevasse-like holes you created in me Never quite filled by drunken nights
Those words, assuming and pompous As if you knew my heartache Arrogant and pretentious Downplaying the sound of my heart Pretending you know me Like you ever tried to know me
I was daring, courageous Not circumventing vulnerability Unrelentingly, unashamedly Convinced How worth it we are How worth it I am
How dare you say "Make love to me" As if I haven't been trying this whole time Every second I was with you Yearning for that love in return
Your quiet rejection inflamed my heart Creating in me a fire Anger masked as butterflies I thought "if only" If only I try harder Then Then you will see How beautiful it could be