I ran behind the trees During our first vacation In my swan sweatshirt After lighting sage My hair in bright colors Remember how I ran Away from you Your dog The picnic blanket
I ran into the darkness Like I might never come back And fought tooth and nail Cried against the green monsters Lined with smoke and ****** grins I looked into their faces And ripped my hem.
I returned eventually As you waited patiently We were never on the same page.
I waltzed through Lincoln Square today And stopped dead in my tracks And saw the snowfall My accidental dark hair And how I picked out presents For your nieces Only to be the girl forgotten.
I packed up my bags Multiple times a week And came to you Came to be with you In my imaginary apron And pearls Did you see how hard I tried?
I changed week to week Couldn't you see?
My youth, as the sun would hit me through your window And you scolded me For being scared When the storm hit And left me in bed Right by the window.
You always had something to say Something to criticize Like me and my sunflower eyes Were never enough To keep you solid, Standing Wherever my unicorn horn took me.
And I know I could go back I could go back and try again But what would be the point?
I sat at the dinner table The youngest in the room As you held my hand in my new shirt But you didn't make love to me Nearly often enough.
Couldn't you see Towards the end How you would wake up Rush us out of bed Rush us out to work Rush me out of your house Out of your heart Out of your bathroom Out of your life.
And so I went I went and confronted that darkness And I stopped punching those green monsters Because those monsters are me.