I know I deserve better
even though I feel like I deserve the bad things that happen
making up for the sins Ive done
But I sat down and thought about it
I dont deserve that
Why am I so ******* myself
A question that will most likely never be answered
I need to start doing whats best for me
even if I feel like I dont deserve it
I have to start by removing people out of my life
Improve on myself
work to be the best I can be
and just live
I am wasting my time
for something that isnt going to change
unless I do something about it
So I have to make a change
and it needs to start now