lights out. you grab my waist and i know you're thinking of her. you whisper in my ear "i love you" and i'm waiting for her name to roll off of your tongue next. i find your eyes in the darkness and i swear i see her reflection in them. you touch me with unfamiliar hands that know the feeling of skin all to well and i swear if you hold me any tighter you might break me the way you broke all your promises. i held my breath and counted to 23, because that was the number of times you told me that you wouldn't leave the day i couldn't stop shaking.
lights on. your hand is in mine and i'm doing my best not to cry. you ask me what's wrong and i swear to you i'm fine. you pull me in and tell me yet another lie. "i love you sweet girl, now close your eyes."
goodnight.