Suffice to say that from this, there's no forward.
Guilty I will always be of this void within.
Seeing the joy from you slaps me to what has always been.
Could I forget? Who am I fooling?

So far yet always within arm's length when seen,
"Go, it's alright," is what I tell myself.
Sadness pulls back time and time,
Caress and care is what I will never be able to do.

Sedate me and make me numb,
Glued - I am stuck in every vision.
Someone new will never be,
Curated from my dreams that will always be blue.