I sit in your car
You want me to go
But I refuse to until
The picture is whole

It's slow in my mind
The seats turn to soft, itchy grass
And wilderness and trees
Replace your shinny glass

I filed my nails down
To my tired bones
I made no sound
As the pain numbed them

I would tell you verbally
That I really do love you,
But there's nothing left to do
Summertime is through
Just a winter sadness left too

So I spray fast drying,
Non-sticky deodorant on
My shaking palms,
No moisture 'til you're gone

I'll absorb remnants
Of your decaying trust issue
And every single pain
That I childishly caused you

And I will take these memories
Birthed eternally in me,
A legacy passed on,
Decade at wavering sea,
Homed in my grateful heart,
Remain forever to be

And you will be free,
A firework you never got to see,
Pollen air clean to breath,
Enjoying warmer sun beams,
Just somehow, never forget me