There is nothing wrong with imitating who you respect but don't go too far in that in order not to be a copy of him/her. I realised that knowing the true identity isn't by achieving everything or becoming perfect, becoming someone but it's knowing what you can or can't do. It's by being able to forgive yourself. It's by knowing who you call family. It's by loving someone truly, utterly without narcissistic delusions.
Sorry for the monotone writings lately without poetic colour. Just struggling missing my greatest love, struggling with the underhand behaviour of people i thought i knew.