last spring i was somewhat happy you kissed me on a street corner after we spent the day drinking coffee and beach combing then you tried to push my boundaries in your car in a random parking lot but i wouldn't let you. then things were okay and shortly thereafter we put a label on it then you met my parents.
this time last year i was waiting for a text that i never received i was waiting for a call back but the phone never rang i had never been so hurt before you planted roots in my heart and my brain, though retrospectively i realize they were superficial at best
it has been over a year since that day and i still wonder why you ended things in such a cowardly way was it because i wouldn't let you touch me? was it because i didn't want to be just friends? or just benefits?
since then i discovered it takes incredible strength to put myself back together but just a few simple words to tear my world apart i let myself be played and taken advantage of because after you, that's what I thought i deserved
last year i lost sight of everything i lost my love for life
long story short, i was ghosted by my (now) ex-boyfriend. after, i spiraled into a deep depression but i was able to heal somewhat and put myself back together. but, that was even worse after i was led on by another man (who, miraculously, i am still friends with) which sent me even deeper into the depression i fought so hard to get out of. this poem might not make much sense but i needed to get it out of my system.