We sat together in your bedroom
Watching lesbian ****
You salivated at the grotesque display
Of the spread channel from which you were born
You once told me you were disgusted
By the male physique
You showered with your eyes closed
Or risked gagging over the bathroom sink
Among the girls you were popular
They stared at you to pass their day
Your mind was filled with their numbers
My mind filled with words I couldn't say
Senior prom snuck up on us
But you found a beautiful date, indeed
I asked an ugly girl to accompany me
And out of pity she agreed
We danced in the converted gym
Under a gaudy mirrored ball
I was stuck between you and her
With my back up against the wall
Afterwards we went to your house
Your parents were away
And their unlocked liquor cabinet
Only heightened our desire to play
Our dates removed their prom gowns
Then helped us get undressed
We drank till we couldn't stand
And fell to the floor in a heap of flesh
I finally saw you naked
A beauty my eyes could hardly see
You were a God among mere mortals
And even lesser men like me
My date's eyes were filled with lust
And I smelled the alcohol on her breath
I performed the perfunctory motions
And sank into her depths
As your date's head bobbed under the blanket
Your moans of pleasure steadily increased
I was energized by your proximity
Which was the sole reason for my release
We left our dates to sleep
Within their sated bliss
Already you wanted another girl
You could ***** and then dismiss
In the kitchen we finished the bottle
And talked of our recent conquests
Together we shared crude jokes
Made at the expense of the opposite ***
An awkward pause followed
And you gazed into my eyes
I felt the alcohol take effect
And placed my hand upon your thigh
Your mouth then met mine
And our tongues were lost within
Your hands trembled as they explored my chest
You didn't know where to begin
In a mirror you caught your reflection
And fell from my embrace
You said I was disgusting
And spit right in my face
In anger you pushed me away
Asking for forgiveness I dropped to my knees
You said that soon everyone would know about me
Because in this town gossip spread just like disease
At home it hit the hardest
I was my mother's boy no more
My father called me a disgrace
And kicked me out the door
Rejected by friends and family
I have no reason to stay
I'll buy a ticket to another town
Somewhere I can keep my memories at bay
I'll rent out an apartment
And decorate my pastel painted walls
I’ll furnish my new life with a phone
That I know you'll never call
I'll find myself a new group of friends
Someone who understands
The exquisite pain of being
Of falling in love with an ignorant man
I wish that my dreams
Weren't haunted by your face
I wish that I could fall asleep
Without clutching a pillow in your place
I'll listen to bitter love songs
Because on pain I can rely
I'll learn to hide my emotions
And laugh when I really want to cry