We sat together in your bedroom Watching lesbian **** You salivated at the grotesque display Of the spread channel from which you were born
You once told me you were disgusted By the male physique You showered with your eyes closed Or risked gagging over the bathroom sink
Among the girls you were popular They stared at you to pass their day Your mind was filled with their numbers My mind filled with words I couldn't say
Senior prom snuck up on us But you found a beautiful date, indeed I asked an ugly girl to accompany me And out of pity she agreed
We danced in the converted gym Under a gaudy mirrored ball I was stuck between you and her With my back up against the wall
Afterwards we went to your house Your parents were away And their unlocked liquor cabinet Only heightened our desire to play
Our dates removed their prom gowns Then helped us get undressed We drank till we couldn't stand And fell to the floor in a heap of flesh
I finally saw you naked A beauty my eyes could hardly see You were a God among mere mortals And even lesser men like me
My date's eyes were filled with lust And I smelled the alcohol on her breath I performed the perfunctory motions And sank into her depths
As your date's head bobbed under the blanket Your moans of pleasure steadily increased I was energized by your proximity Which was the sole reason for my release
We left our dates to sleep Within their sated bliss Already you wanted another girl You could ***** and then dismiss
In the kitchen we finished the bottle And talked of our recent conquests Together we shared crude jokes Made at the expense of the opposite ***
An awkward pause followed And you gazed into my eyes I felt the alcohol take effect And placed my hand upon your thigh
Your mouth then met mine And our tongues were lost within Your hands trembled as they explored my chest You didn't know where to begin
In a mirror you caught your reflection And fell from my embrace You said I was disgusting And spit right in my face
In anger you pushed me away Asking for forgiveness I dropped to my knees You said that soon everyone would know about me Because in this town gossip spread just like disease
At home it hit the hardest I was my mother's boy no more My father called me a disgrace And kicked me out the door
Rejected by friends and family I have no reason to stay I'll buy a ticket to another town Somewhere I can keep my memories at bay
I'll rent out an apartment And decorate my pastel painted walls I’ll furnish my new life with a phone That I know you'll never call
I'll find myself a new group of friends Someone who understands The exquisite pain of being Of falling in love with an ignorant man
I wish that my dreams Weren't haunted by your face I wish that I could fall asleep Without clutching a pillow in your place
I'll listen to bitter love songs Because on pain I can rely I'll learn to hide my emotions And laugh when I really want to cry