“...Your words were found and I ate them. They became a joy to my heart. In my mouth— a sweet delight, but in my belly—bitter...” --Jeremiah
...But that night by dim background of next-room light I could not see your face just feel your hush of shadow words on spine of shudders
Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding!
...And I was sure? that it was right? because...because....! Their eyes were slanted! So they could not see— the “Good Guys” VANISH— WIDE-EYED—! in its TOO-MUCH-LIGHT
Still your voice insists in pause and fissioned hiss that I MUST KNOW in tender half-life TRUTH too pure too deadly white
I swallow lethal glowing dose HOW CAN YOU SPEAK SUCH WORDS SO CLOSE!
EXPOSED!
“...in mouth sweet—in belly bitter…”
Stories? and the Grandma Song rendered tender—lull of voice Soul’s cabinet cleared of venial sin Last of all—the tucking in.....
They say you first get sick....*
Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding! And I am invisibly ill—with truth approaching critical mass
Will angry rads incise their ways? Will leaden swords of angels drive them back?
In this night— my bedtime stories fainted at your whispers...whispers...WHISPERS—
fusing an oblong fear that I MUST NOT DROP! but I cannot hold!
Fetal-folded frail and freezing under covers— just barely peeking
“Jesus hanging on the cross…Tell me-- was it I?” Jesus hanging in the cross TELL ME! IT’S NOT TRUE!
"Tell me, mother Were you God talking?
I could not see your face by the next room’s light..."
My mother told me some bad **** sometimes just before bedtime, and I never forgot it. Written 1995