i'm just kinda lost-feeling
broken, sad, third-wheeling
i feel hollow
food's hard to swallow
and the small blue pills
don't seem to change me.

i was getting better
wrapping myself in sweaters
laughing as much as i could
if i could smile every day i would
i'm scared, i'm stressed,
i hate getting dressed
and none of my last lines rhyme.

i want to disappear
but i don't want to leave
my unwanted body behind
for someone to find
no one needs to see me
hanging from a tree
or dredged out of a lake.
if only i could dissolve.