you were the only thing i wanted no to be wanted by you was the only thing i wanted
do you remember when we hung like bats from the ceiling of the lowest room in my house you cast shadows across my arms pulled the nails from my hands stripped the skin from my arms plucked my bones out and watched my veins fray like wires
it hurt it hurt and it felt like love
and then we were separated by seven seas by shallow forests by melting ice caps by dark blueish time
i was one thousand years from you as you snapped up anything sweet and in reach i was suspended in the air with three hundred other passengers and not a single one knew what was running racing pulsing through my head i was burning but there was something cold and wet on my face i was cracked wide open crumpled right outside your door
then came the truth and other things that hurt that's all i want to say about that
but i'll always feel like i didn't try hard enough that it was me not you that itcouldhaveworkedicouldhavemadeitwork
i think maybe i didn't want to be enough i wanted to be yours