i know how you buried
your soul in our sand
how you wrapped your arms
around everyone i love
how you desperately held them
and how desperately
i asked you to leave

i wonder how long you'd stare
if you see my eyes
that don't look at you the same
the happiness piercing from behind
but you weren't here long enough
to be the reason why

i'm sorry to leave you
when i confessed that i wouldn't
i'm sorry to steal a future
that could have been with you
i'm sorry for the damage i caused
and the promises that were left
in thin air

i still remember every stain
on the heirloom fabric
but every now and then
i ask myself if everything
really happened

i miss everything
but i don't want you back
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