i accidentally threw my toothbrush away last night and had to use the spare i’ve been saving for you my eyeglasses had a water droplet on them and i couldn’t see straight it wasn’t because i was drunk or sad or angry it was the water droplet blurring everything and bringing an end to fine edges and clarity answers
in the end it is kindness that undoes me my dog brings me toys when i'm sad or sick and nudges them into my elbow like some knock-off substitution for benadryl or lexapro i still have sand in my eyes from the desert you drug me through it isn’t because i haven’t slept or am hungover or dehydrated i swear it's the sand like diamonds
whenever i'm in the throes of a panic attack i wear the shirt my mom bought me because it makes me feel safe the day after you i ask her if i'm allowed to tell her when i'm hungover or when i've made a mistake but i can't because when you moved over me and my body responded it wasn’t my mom's shirt anymore. it was yours