he said i was all blurred lines and soft edges he said baby you are sweet like honey you are soft like the quiet summer and i couldn't open my mouth i cough up blood i couldn't say i am the snapping jaws of a wild animal i have poison in my veins and i break things on purpose i break hearts on purpose i am angry hash marks and biting words i am choking back bile he said baby you are innocent and lyrical and sunlight and i said i am still cold in the middle of july