Fogged windows blinded my sight from the world. Sitting in a bus, I was overflowed with thoughts that's been haunting me from my past.

A girl can only wonder limitless, intensely and quietly... I go crazy thinking nothing ever really last.

I asked myself everyday, WHEN will I be happy
WHEN will I be complete
WHEN will I find someone who will love me... for me

Why not start a family?
at least I could have some sort of reason. To look forward to sunshine even on a cloudy day, to set sails and freely float away.

But WHEN will I discover peace?
is it that I have everything I want and nothing that I really need?

A confusing puzzle I may never solve. Maybe I should be alone, maybe I was brought here to be on my own.

...I don't know WHEN all the pain and disappointment will end, they say I'm too pretty to feel this sad, too intelligent and I should appreciate what I have, that one day everything will fall into place... Yet I have to pretend
They say just wait, day after day. Everything that is for you, will come to you
.... But WHEN?


S.B