to walk down a city street. my friend and I huddled together not just because of wind and she whispers to me, "i forgot the first rule. don't make eye contact." that's what my mother had taught me too and we walked a little faster past the stranger nervous that the split second of acknowledging merely that he exists in his mind, was permission
i am a girl and i am afraid...
to go to work. i'm always there later than everyone else sitting at the front door, workers come in and out i don't know one by name but i remember when i interviewed "dress professionally, because you're young and you're pretty and you'll work with a lot of men" i know how to redirect unwanted attention but i didn't realize i'd be here alone... so i buy myself a taser and listen to my coworker say "there's cameras" anytime i voice my concern and i pray that i am not the one in five
i am a girl and i am afraid...
that i’ll never be good enough. on our way to the airport my mom asked about work and after a brief explanation of the weight loss competition that had started and my 20-pound goal she made a mom face and said “but honey don’t you think you could aim higher than that?” “what?’ i ask because i literally have no idea what she’s saying “well i bet you could shoot to loose 30 to 40-pounds if you want!” “do you really think i’m that fat…?” “well honey i’ve just been a little concerned since high school.” i’ve never felt more crushed to be a size 6
i am a girl and i am afraid…
that things wont change and that my daughters will live on the same **** schedule i have always lived on
those people that refuse to admit there's a problem make me the saddest. this is my life. this is your life. lets change it.