What do you do when you have nothing left to say.
When all you want to do is sit in your room and weep quietly to yourself,
to never re appear into the world
never having to look someone in the face again and tell them everything is ok,
to fake a smile and hide what you’re feeling inside.
You know it doesn’t feel right when you cry,
it’s almost as if you don’t deserve to cry because you know somewhere someone is way worse off than you are.  
You know you shouldn’t but you can’t help but to let the tears fall from your eyes slowly.
your heart is shattering and you don’t know why you always feel like you’re ruining everything.
When you feel the need to apologize for everything and you can’t help but question everything.
You want to let your guard down,
let the walls you built come tumbling down but you just can’t because you will never trust yourself to love fully and with all of yourself again.
You can’t trust someone to get their grip on your heart because you never know when they are gonna let it fall to the ground and throw it away like it means nothing.
So you hold it in and you never let go because you can’t set yourself free again.
Because all you can do is fall and those walls keep you walking straight with your head held high and your heart high out of the reach of everyone who could harm it.