My heart drops,
My mind cloudens,
I cannot think.
I am overcome,
Like instincts to an animal,
I envy.
Small things look big,
My judgment is biased,
I am losing control.
I keep fighting to keep myself on top of things,
Controlling and having things to my plan,
I have forgotten,
that life cannot be controlled.
I must do my best,
but there is no guarantee.
How do I fight Envy?
For Envy is part of me.
How do I fight Envy?
If Envy is caused by my two best friends?
If I fight, I lose.
If I surrender, I lose.
Should I continue to try and control?
Or must let Life sort things out?
Oh Envy, I curse you.