I needed to explore the core of me

then and only then will the truth come out

I was the girl  in the mirror

the one they whispered about

I knelt beside the pools of selfishness and pain

disappointments resentment
anger

the view was all the same

pictures of my life

that played over and over again

Draining my river of happiness the steam is growing thin

I know what I have to do is to go  further down

I have learned I can't love you if I don't love myself

or else we will both drown.