It saddens me to know that most will never understand the darkness stirring inside.

Intrusive thoughts smashing around like high tide in the depths of winter, the misery and anger that they bring feels enough to crush me.

But it doesn't.....

They say that every cloud has a silver lining....

And for me, I know that if I can hang on and ride the black waves of depression for long enough it will end just as it always does, and my life will start again.

Soaring high like the eagles, the joy and energy of life will blast it's way back through my vains once more.

The misery and intrusive thoughts will be replased with happiness, and crative ideas as the anger and despair are washed away like a rapid tidal current.

But.......

I know this will not last forever.