Waking up in the early mornings
Just for a few moments of quiet and peace
Trying not to let on that things weren't
Picture perfect, as they say, within myself
Nodding and smiling and playing the part
Using all my practice from over the years
Wiping away stray tears and maintaining
A neutral tone of voice, shifting between
Light hearted and deadly serious
Depending on different cues that
I've learned to notice
Throughout the course of time
I know just when to smile
(When everyone else is smiling)
I know just when to laugh
(When everyone else is laughing)
And I know just when to cry
(When everyone's busy)
And I know just when to sigh
(When I think about how pointless it all is)