I avoided you all week long. All week. It was hard,but I did it. I avoided you because I had to face the fact that in 9 months I had to live life without you in it. Then today came. I heard you laugh for the first time in a week. And I just lost my ****. I cried. I cried because the days were going by so fast. I cried because you make me so happy and unhappy at the same time. I cried because I love you so much and you don't even give two *****. I cried because I love you more than I love myself. I cried for my love that is unable to scream out loud. I cried because I knew that we were never meant to be and that was that.