I apoligize for not reading your posts. I have been battling my depression and have not been online . I have written a poem about it (of course lol). I hope you enjoy and I hope to be online tomorrow.
My Dark Tale (A Sestina)
It is a lovely time of day for tea As I sit curled up to the song of rain Memories arise of a deep dark pain Storm clouds gather within my heart, darkly Dimly, I am aware of rainbow’s hope Wanting dreams infused with Rosemary and Thyme
Out of work, I suffer from too much time Overeating and drinking too much tea Depression worsens, stealing all my hope And all my dreams shatter in the cold rain Leaving me empty in the bitter dark As I stare out of the broken windowpane
How I long to conquer my bitter pain If only I would organize my time I know then, I would rise above the dark Instead, I get caught in cookies and tea And sink deeper; chaos supremely reigns I flounder once again, losing my hope
I am tired of losing precious hope Letting despair and worthless bitter pain To take control and determinedly reign Structure! Will that allow me to use time Positively? Cutting back on black tea Getting needed sleep to fight back the dark
Rested, I can push back the hated dark Strive to capture peace and beautiful hope Learning once again to enjoy my tea And not as a crutch that causes me pain While I mourn the loss of wasted sweet time Instead, I would see rainbows in the rain
I yearn to topple depression’s long reign, To walk in the sun’s light, not the cold dark Eager to greet the day and enjoy time Pursue my dreams, infusing life with hope Do away with doldrums and bitter pain Relaxing and enjoying Earl Gray Tea
Envoi
To sum up, I yearn to enjoy my tea Overcome my darkness and pain; to feel hope While I take time to enjoy the sweet rain