"he'll come back" they told me
"you're no good without each other, you're meant to be"
but you know what?
i don't want to ******* hear it
because he couldn't do me the courtesy
of telling me when he fell out of love with me
when it was all i asked from the start

he couldn't do me the honors
of keeping me from wondering where he was when my mind raced for softness
he couldn't bless me with the knowledge
that i'd better stop planning my life around what he wanted me to be

but he didn't make me who i am
he didn't make beauty and warmth shine from beneath my eyelids
even when I am at my worst
he didn't make my mind the source of strength and comfort
it has been for all of my short life
that has felt longer than he could imagine

and he will be just fine
in the arms of another
and that will stop hurting one day
when i realize it wasn't me
who set fire to a future i was so blindly chasing in the dark

and i will trust one day
slowly but surely
when i can be confident the arms wrapped around me
want to be there wholeheartedly
and that they truly want to weather storms
of any magnitude
as long as i am at the end of them

so excuse me for saying this
but i am still full of so much good without him
and if he's no good without me
then he should've thought of that a long ******* time ago