She coming out of the bus she has forgotten the umbrella walks slowly and her face is more African now that she is old, she uses it as a walking stick, which she says for the aged, I think my love for her has grown over the years, and I cannot think of the time we were apart before we met twenty-two odd years ago. We have Christmas day here and next day take the bus to a hospital in Lisbon that specialises in hip replacement We will stay the night in the metropole have good meal and look at things- for my part rather like a grumpy North Korean leader then back to my Algarve with trees and big boulders Tomorrow we are eating at a hotel they are not serving turkey but Cabrito (goat meat) sauté potatoes and a lot of sweets I don't care to know about; since I'm driving only water or tomato juice. It is an ordeal for me to be among people I don't know I will take 5 ml of ******, it will keep me calm until I simmer down and laugh at bad jokes as told by an exhibitionist. We can't stay long since we are living in the morn On a short walk outdoors I saw my dog she walked beside me I bent down to pat her head but she saw something and ran into the bushes I called her name; Bambi come here, when it dawn on me she had been dead for ten years and it made me think of my own mortality, but not in a gloomy way. Sun, blue sky and stillness now the hunters have gone drinking in a cafe, but the visit from Bambi perked me up so did a cup of coffee when coming home, nothing out of the ordinary yet, I persist on dreaming of tomorrow