I only write love poems when I'm not in love when I can only just recall the weight of another's hand in mine the ghost of a thumb tracing circles in my palm moving up and down the side of each finger the gentle squeeze, gone as soon as imagined.
I only write love poems when I'm not in love when I can only just recall the feel of another's back against mine pressing and shifting as we sleep a roll, a stretch, and then an arm lazily, gently wrapped around me the firmness of bone pressing into my side.
I only write love poems when I'm not in love when exact words of forgotten conversations are falsely filled in and I fail to place what I had said and what I wish I had said in the right spaces in time I never say I love you quite right to the people who deserve it because I lied so often to those who did not.
I only write love poems when I'm not in love so this is not a love poem because when I'm with you, there is no room for the flowery imagery and spark of idealized romance or the burning ember growing into a flame that fills me with longing for another body. There's only you and I and whatever sky we comment on while I take in everything you are and everything we could be and I miss you before you are gone.