With a smile
I fall "in love"
once again

With a smile
I get rejected
once again

With a smile
I  start
to go insane

With a smile
I scream
at the thoughts in my brain

With a smile
I hide
all the signs of my pain

With a smile
I reach out
for help in  vain

With a smile
I live
with nothing to gain

With a smile
I put
a bullet in my brain