The vibration of Chicago is very high I find my head swirling and hurting all too often So I allowed myself halfway through today To just say Maybe today is your day, mama.
I don't feel like I really have many true friendships here Its work and nothing but work I am happy And then sometimes I am very much not And the idea that it will take years For me to settle in the way I did Philadelphia Creates a wearisome feeling in my chest.
Everything is very far And not incredibly safe I love living alone But I'm not quite comfortable Yet in my own nest I prefer to have my man around To keep nestled in and safe But he too, suffers from the cut throat Stressful vibration And in the midst of all that tension I'll think We aren't LA. We aren't NYC The extension out to the rest of the world is higher Than Philadelphia and most cities But my God Its not that big a deal You just aren't THAT big a deal Chicago And I'm sure I will outgrow you at some point too.
So today is just a day Of feeling like everything is locked in place Do I matter? Does my work matter? Do you matter? Is this ever going to ******* go anywhere?
I don't know Today I just have no answers And thats okay.