Is it that cashier you didn’t make eye contact with?
Is it that new girl that seems nice but you’ll never know?
Is it that lost love you want back but you’ll never have?
Is it that poor test grade you know should have been better?
Or is it that time you didn’t stand up for yourself?
Is it the feeling of the waves devouring you?
Is it the weight of the universe on your chest?
Is it the feeling of falling down like a tree?
Is it the feeling of the wind chilling your entire body?
Or is it the feeling of a tornado in your mind?
I wish it would leave! Oh, why won’t it leave!?
I wanted to smile at that nice cashier.
I wanted to befriend the new girl.
I wanted to say “I still love you.”
I wanted to study harder for that test.
I wanted to stand up for once!
I want to stand in calm water.
I want to breathe without pain.
I want to stand tall.
I want to feel warm in my skin.
I want to feel peace in my mind for once!
But not today, it says. Not today.