If I still find myself writing about it Does that mean I have not fully recovered from it?
Even though the bones of moving past whats long gone No longer swirls above and below Still in the peak of what has occurred It lingers with a damp tan spike Held together with fire hair And a wind pipe, thrusted together with This must be it, this must be it.
But there is still apart of me That even still Moves past the drunken ******* nights The mold growing inside my skull Forgotten drunk whispered statements As the wind blew up my skirt Echoing "You're so new. You're so new" Until like whiplash That was no longer an excuse.
But I'll shake my head As it feels like yesterday A pink apron, baseball cap Herding my phone As if every second My skin grew purple CondensedΒ Β And as if there was not already A palpitating strangeness That questioning of goodness Faith, where I wonder and examine The truth every ounce of every glass.
Could turn them all upside down As they dripped and conceived nothing And yet my mind would still fabricate more.
Partially because I awoke to what I knew Was bathed in grease But still held on For fear of That newness And placement Confidence In that virginity It comes, it comes But grappling with new and fleeting Moments, meaningful words exchanged And then gone again I wish as if I could record and collect them all For those moments where like wheels spinning on ice I see horrors I cannot tell But only show.
With my writings With my movies With my aura That when tapped into Can radiate a power beyond expertise.