Somewhere deep within
I knew I was lost and left behind
as everyone around me continued
on and found something new
All I knew was I wanted
to bloom into a worthy
flower among the weeds and everlasting bitterness of sharp unyielding thorns
I tried to fight the rising
tide of panic as the walls closed
in around me and everyone's
misconceptions showed in
the corners of slitted eyes
The shimmering sunlight among
the dark threads of the ocean
were always within my reach but
I being the unthorough coward
was never able to figure out
how to let myself bathe under the light
and instead could only sigh longingly
appreciating the translucent fragile balance from afar
now I am thinking every second
dreaming every dream to ever come my way
my petals get more wilted
and my stem bends a little bit more every time
but my soul at the very bottom of my heart
is helping me inch towards that tender magnificent light
that will pour into my very being
nourishing cleansing freeing from any pain
and scattering my profound enlightened seeds
into the soil thriving in the great light of
the dawn of a new age.