I wasn't really sure how I felt this morning.
I woke up with a start.

The whole day was mostly just music and silence.
I sat and listened to music from different schools, after performing my own.
But other than that, not an hour passed without that
That
That
thing.

I thought it wasn't real.
It was all some dream,
I didn't know what I felt.
Anger? Anxiety?
Oh yeah.

I'm just in shock
It's a weird feeling.
I've never had this before.
Or at least not that I can remember.

Why am I so nervous for something I didn't have a say in the first place?
I guess it's because next time I will.
I will be there.
And I will be responsible for changing what debris is left from this.
I guess that's why.