Right now, It feels as if I've thrown myself Into a TV of flipping channels, The static pixels Are dripping down my back, And stinging my eyes. Nothing makes sense anymore.
You've cut people out Of your life, Like meticulously crafted Paper snowflakes, And I feel myself folding To be cut next.
My life is vibrating in my scull, I'm fumbling with the images, And I don't feel like I'm touching Anything, Especially not you.
I'd like to rip a part Every Single Day, And make a collage, With the yellows and greys, The kisses down my neck, And play all our mean words On vinyl As I glue it all together.
I can't reach you, Not through your brain, An underachiever like myself, Can't bust into there, And I'm scratching At the glass coating on your heart, But I don't want to break it.
I've stopped reminding myself Why I do What I do, Why I don't fight you anymore. I've let myself crash into A kaleidoscope Of colors, And start drowning A sea of coursing TV static Channels. Because it's easier Than losing you.
But I hush my thoughts now, Because it may all be My crazy anxiety Ripping up my brain, Again.