How familiar was it
To feel you so close to me
Yet physically far away
Simultaneously

To know you have experienced
The same pains and thoughts
And all along, over time
I believed it was only me

Talking to you once more
Made me feel like I reconnected
To one of my oldest friends
That I lost touch with, suddenly

But I know that all of the time
Was worth something
Like the years we spent apart
Helped me grow, personally

Loving someone else gave me perspective
It taught me so much about myself
It taught me about the heart
In all of its beautiful complexities

I didn't quite understand myself
The things I felt, the way I never
Could forget about everything
Even though I felt pathetically

You may know, you may not
Of the depths of my heart
Its layers and intricacies
Are sometimes even a mystery to me

I just know that I can't be dishonest
With myself of all people
It took a while for me to kind of be okay
But I can't pretend that you don't affect me in some kind of way