Tonight I write my wrongs. Let someone who didn't love me, Destroy me mentally and emotionally. I ran to another that one night, I needed love. I needed to feel like everything was okay. Like somebody cared for me. That night I laid there in silence, What's done is done. Going to ****** for pleasure, Trying to find something that was close to feeling like what I felt for you. You. You destroyed me into pieces, And I ask myself why can't I forget you. When you no longer need me, Lord this man doesn't even love me. Lord why Did i make this mistake, Lord why are you punishing me. I'm vulnerable, And he knows how to speak, When I am feeling weak, The only man I've ever went too, Because his love went through me like quick sand. Lord my petals that were grewing in me, are dying Because I forgot to love it, Lord my body is changing because of it. Lord I slept with this man, Whom I know isn't the man I want to be with, But rather feel as if he loves me, Knowing he only loves me When his devils horns reach in me. Lord why are you guiding me into the direction that I know will make me suffer. God why aren't you showing the signs that I need, For me to move forward. Lord why are you letting me pretend as if I am strong, When you know I am weak. God hear me. Lord please **** me.