cutting myself open
On this bright sunny day
Night is far too broken
For me to now betray


There's so much confusion
And the illusion never fades
Those mistakes were a delusion
But the price was never paid

Now that I'm stuck in my own
Here in walls that were never made
I can sense that universe has grown
And I'm collapsing in my wait

Far away from this corner
There's a man who cannot see
If I could look in the mirror
I know I won't understand me

There's so much blindness
Only darkness in my lonely head
Sometimes it's just pointless
And there's no reason to be myself

I've been mourning with patience
For someone to recognise my dread
And I keep having these conversations
With people buried beneath my bed


Pretending to make love with fire
And it's slowly burning my skin
The smoke travels in a desire
Deep inside when I take it in


I'm always reaching for something
Something that's too ugly to exist
I want to feel how it feels to be nothing
Can never forget a child's last wish


Let it rip apart me for a while
This pain, it's my only friend
For a moment let me be alive
I'm not yet ready for the end