Oct 2016
I don't know what happened exactly but my dad and gran
Came into my dream last night to try and get me to understand
That they had no plan for me
And they just wanted me to be happy but they were looking at
How I am suffering with my voices, especially when I will tell my voices I love my life too much to want to **** myself
I know I need to be careful what I say on Facebook and it might be hard when I keep airing my ***** laundry on it but sometimes I find it fun mention the past of what caused my mental illness, I believe in previous lives and I am starting to see proper psychic visions
Last night and it made me feel great, you see I like watching daily vlogs on YouTube because it makes me feel happy and as much fun as me and Patrick had when we were young
I don't want his voice in my head because I hear him saying
Let's give him my voice do me and him can play with Brian all the time till he dies and when I say I am getting tired of that
The voice says don't be like Lyle
Saying I am tired all the time
And dad told me he was worried if I talk about Christmas I might get tease because I was very negative back then, and I want to say just one thing I didn't really like going to church
It is not because of the messiah
I found it ever so boring
Back in 2003 I tried to had excitement to church by bringing a coke drinking man to the church and when I participated in church it was like a kid who wanted to be famous
Even if mum didn't want me to go for her, I just couldn't resist
You see I wanted to show I was a stupid arrogant drunk who
Smoke and drank himself to an early oblivion and I know I really made my family scared of me
And that is why I gave up drinking
I didn't give up partying
I still want to party
You can still party without beer
I wanted to buy a 24 can pack of coke so I can have a big party
But I mainly party at home now
And other places which are cool
For me to go to
And what is cool for me isn't what other people say what is cool for me, no I am an individual you can't fool me
I like doing my art but when o was trying to do my art last week I felt lazy and I just wanted to watch tv to get my inspiration back
You see back in 2003 I wanted to inspirational but that wasn't the word I meant to say
My motto is give up what
Makes you angry no matter how cool it is and enjoy life like me
Came into my dream last night to try and get me to understand
That they had no plan for me
And they just wanted me to be happy but they were looking at
How I am suffering with my voices, especially when I will tell my voices I love my life too much to want to **** myself
I know I need to be careful what I say on Facebook and it might be hard when I keep airing my ***** laundry on it but sometimes I find it fun mention the past of what caused my mental illness, I believe in previous lives and I am starting to see proper psychic visions
Last night and it made me feel great, you see I like watching daily vlogs on YouTube because it makes me feel happy and as much fun as me and Patrick had when we were young
I don't want his voice in my head because I hear him saying
Let's give him my voice do me and him can play with Brian all the time till he dies and when I say I am getting tired of that
The voice says don't be like Lyle
Saying I am tired all the time
And dad told me he was worried if I talk about Christmas I might get tease because I was very negative back then, and I want to say just one thing I didn't really like going to church
It is not because of the messiah
I found it ever so boring
Back in 2003 I tried to had excitement to church by bringing a coke drinking man to the church and when I participated in church it was like a kid who wanted to be famous
Even if mum didn't want me to go for her, I just couldn't resist
You see I wanted to show I was a stupid arrogant drunk who
Smoke and drank himself to an early oblivion and I know I really made my family scared of me
And that is why I gave up drinking
I didn't give up partying
I still want to party
You can still party without beer
I wanted to buy a 24 can pack of coke so I can have a big party
But I mainly party at home now
And other places which are cool
For me to go to
And what is cool for me isn't what other people say what is cool for me, no I am an individual you can't fool me
I like doing my art but when o was trying to do my art last week I felt lazy and I just wanted to watch tv to get my inspiration back
You see back in 2003 I wanted to inspirational but that wasn't the word I meant to say
My motto is give up what
Makes you angry no matter how cool it is and enjoy life like me
