I'm scared and
It's such a familiar feeling
Because everything we are
Once did
And always will
Make me unstable on my feet
Stepping up again
Like we are
To try to restart a history
That has been set on repeat
Is so dangerous
Possibly even
Unwise
Yet here we go
Praying that
This time
It will actually be different
And knowing what I know
Which is what I stand to lose
I'm so ******* afraid
That not for lack of trying
*I'm still not Good enough