I was destroyed
I was numbed
I was crying
I was holding my phone on my chest waiting for that vibration to act as a electric shock to my heart...
HOPE
I couldn't  eat
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't feel
After that night Everything felt distanced
" But I was so happy" I would tell my self
I would question my beliefs
I would question all the sins i've done
I would cry out "Im sorry" to the people i've hurt unintentionally.
But I realized he was Judas.
My own Judas.