My father got me a new cell phone, another new change. I wish I could keep my old one, because your number is in my phone that I have now. I can’t put your number in my new phone, my parents will think I still like you. I can’t like you, I can’t. I need to move on, I need to move on. You were my first kiss, my first love. My first heart break. I love you, I always will in a way. I can’t be with you, never. People would think it’s wrong. I can’t believe all you wanted was my body, I can't believe you would want my body at all. You say you love me, but then we don’t talk for months. It’s not your fault I know. I received a call telling me you were missing, my world stopped. I couldn’t breathe and I was crying. I was sobbing wondering if you were truly gone. Hating you because I thought you had run away and left everything behind. I thought you had left me. Did you leave me? Is it over? Should I let go of you and leave you behind? Should I leave all the conversations and promises behind and pretend they never existed?