I saw a dream walking on the sand Or it could have been a hedgerow road Wearing a hijab or a Sunday dress Or a naked body covered in screams The images laced with the faces, Of the waiting ones, who for them, Life is about nature walks And laughing with their children But now they only know shock Nobody told them how to cope With bombs And the dreams of despots
I saw them Their blank faces unable to reach me Was I their savior Or the reality of true power I love my family They believed in me But to a stranger, I am a machine A soldier ready to die But it wasn’t that way It’s not that simple I don’t want to die And yes, I am afraid
Yes, they do The memory of a sacred ceremony Do you have one? They do The defeated ones They have a God They have blood planted where you stand You cannot erase a memory Unless you **** a man And his family All of them Then you can pretend it didn’t happen
We were sent with visions of glory It is the way of war But we cannot imagine it For glory does not provide details Only parades and salutes And tears It does not speak of panic Of equipment failure Of battle fatigue Of another man willing to die for his God Or his Fuhrer You didn’t read it in the manual
Void and formless Light Oceans Continents Life Vanity Race Predominance Oppression Death Did he set it in motion Or is he trying to turn it around?
I don’t want to die But I am about to lose everything I have My life now is like crossing a freeway It can be done You just have to know how to do it Or just be lucky Am I wearing the right clothes? The women are dressed for their God The Sunday dress The hijab They were ready Except the screams of burning flesh is not a dress
I lost a fight once in school Now I'm an assassin A dangerous man That’s all I need to think about Killing another man And I can **** another man With a gun Or a knife They are supposed to fear me They need to fear me But I am afraid of myself Violence is all that matters now That’s what everyone wants
I walked out on the field The crowd was cheering for me Then my eyes met those of a kneeling man A brave man playing a violent sport I nodded to him But he didn’t stand up He watched me honored for surviving For surviving something greater than myself Right or wrong And he knew that people hated him They hated him for not honoring me But I wasn’t angry I could only think about those women