Forgive me my tresspasses.

Only because I have no one, no where else to vent.
I have a gf. She insist she loves me. I've had a few others in the past say the same thing. I have never believed them/anyone.
I'm not sure why. I don't know if it's because no one has ever met my definition of love. Maybe I'm dead inside. I have no idea.
Sometimes someone will do something nice for me. I'm not sure what that is all about either.
I can wrap my brain around the concept of a black hole. But for the life of me I will never understand this love thing.
I know how I feel about certain people. But I can't say they feel the same way. At least not with any certainty.
I just can't imagine anyone feeling for me how it is I may feel about them.
I'm not crying, *******, moaning what have you. I'm just stating the fact of my confusion when it comes to how love is supposed to work.