A Bullet to Her Name

She thrives on control
for her being in control, even for a minute
made it appear that she had some sort of stability in her life
like she knew what she was doing

Change was a struggle of hers
its a goal that can best reflect her deepest desires
A dreamer with endless curiosity of the world she inhabits
and exactly where she fits in with it
Yet her own self doubt will stop her every time
from trying to discover her inner purpose

Her weakness of intimacy
is a walking caution sign that warns
If you dare get close to her
you might want to back the *******
She doesn't know what its like to be in love
only that it relates to the abundance of commitment issues
that she bravely drags along behind her
from all her previous lovers

Her problems are paper chains of chaotic messes
all connected in some way that leads up to who she is
A difficult mind that only gets more complicated
the further she lets you in
Many will leave her
for only few can handle
the unpredictable, raw, impulsive person
she can be

No more
will these things be a part of her
For the first time in-- probably ever
she welcomes positivity with open arms
and tries to embrace her true potential
Discovering that taking the step in becoming
a better person doesn't mean
having control
understanding what she fears
or through another person to determine

It starts with being pitiless in
facing her own problems head on, reaching out and
beating her insecurities with a smile on her face
No, her efforts are not for anyone else to comprehend or to take part in
There for her
and for her to be selfish
in taking all the time required to do so
at her own pace