I murdered you in my sleep...
E v e r y   d a m n   n i g h t

My endless resentment
Built up in the back of my neck
Released bit by bit
Through every slam
From finger hitting keyboard
Loud, violent
Like waves crashing onto shore
I murdered you every night

And every letter you spoke
On constant replay in my head
Every single time you came to mind
(ALL THE TIME)
Cutting through me in ways
I didn't know possible
Seeping into my bloodstream like poison
I felt your words the world over
You should have killed me, friend
It wouldn't have hurt as badly

I hated you relentlessly
I murdered you in my sleep
Please don't tell me you're sorry
I can't just forget the things you said
I'M NOT A CHALKBOARD, WHITEBOARD, DRY-ERASE WHAT ******* EVER
THE SLATE ISN'T CLEAN
... i can't do it

Please, please don't tell me you're sorry
You know better than I
That after a little smile
And some kind words,
I'm waving white flags
Left hating no one
Except for myself

B e c a u s e

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